Post by Stephanie Devine on Oct 28, 2008 8:11:05 GMT -5
'When you look me in the eyes,
i catch a glimpse of heaven'
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God why did he have to be so amazing? Her mind was in complete overload just for having a conversation with him, because they kept bringing up jokes and things from their past everything seemed to flow.It was just a normal conversation though, if she were to have it with anybody else it wouldn't have had the same impact, if she spoke about Stephland to somebody else they wouldn't have known what they hell she was talking about never mind reply in such a teasing way.To think of it, her and Seth had shared so many memories it was actually hard to believe, she didn't think that little things would remind her of him but they did.Since their break up the smallest most stupid thing could remind her of him, like pencils..which sounded stupid but he always had his notebook and pencils with him so every time she saw pencils she would think of Seth and that was a little hard to avoid considering they were an everyday thing, his cologne often haunted her, if she was at the mall and she smelt a similar scent she would think he was there.Whenever she watched musicals he popped into her mind, their debate about Chenzel ran through her memory.
Seth was her bittersweet reminder of most things that made her happy so yeah, if she had to flat out admit it, he stayed on her mind practically twenty four seven.When he asked his question the blonde snapped out of her thoughts, she seemed to be doing that a lot today, drifting off in some deep emotion filled Seth daydream and it was only his voice that could snap her out of it, not the pumping music, the loud crowds or background noise, his voice and that alone was all that could break her phase."You should be sorry, i told you to buy a rulebook..and did you listen?" she once again used that dominating tone, like she was his mother or something, letting a smile play on her lips at the very thought of this conversation she shook her head slightly as if he couldn't do anything to make it up to her "Hmm, I'll think about it..but you have to do whatever i wish..." she replied deviously, giving a joking sense of evil.
Stephanie fell deep into this trap, this hold he had on her.And in the moments of the kiss she almost forgot about everything she had tried to keep up, the wall she had built metaphorically to not let him in, well that was crushed now because it seemed like he was as close as he was going to get.Though she didn't find herself complaining, not while the kiss was happening, sure her mind was telling her to stop, telling her she was stupid but her heart was loving this moment, her stomach had that familiar butterflies feeling, she felt a sudden rush of warmth shoot through her as their lips collided, it was like a vision of perfection.As she felt his hand move to her face it shot shivers over her skin, the way he gently touched her cheek and hair made her really cherish the moment, cherish every other kiss they had in the past, she really had missed him, everything about him..the way he touched , the way he kissed, his smile, his eyes, his hair, his humor, his laugh....
No! her mind and heart finally came to a decision, she couldn't do this to herself, to him.What if he thought she was just leading him on or something? she wasn't like that...well she used to be a tease but not with him, he was too important to her, she didn't want him to think that she was just playing him but right now she couldn't think of anything else but her exit, to get away from him and think things through.It wasn't that she was freaking out in the bad sense it was mostly in the good sense, the fact that she had been overwhelmed by love and she couldn't help her feelings and emotions colliding into one big tidal wave inside of her.Before she knew it she rushed away from him, nearly confessing her emotions but deciding against it as she picked up the pace desperately trying to reach outside.
Her breathing had increased rapidly, she had felt her heart literally jump out of her chest but the one thing that was on her mind right now was the fact that he had called her name, told her to wait but she hadn't listened, just ran away like she always did.Finally realizing she couldn't keep running away from her feelings she turned to see if he was following her, there was no sign of him, what if he had the wrong impression and left? she couldn't deal with that, losing him all over again, he had that power over her, made her almost drown in the love she had for him.Where was he? He always came after her when she was upset, didn't he care? It was all too much for her, she felt herself almost resulting to tears at her reaction to his kiss, she loved him so much it physically hurt her and she felt as though she had made the biggest mistake of her life by running away from him.
Notes: Aww Kayla i love you i literally screamed a yay when i saw you had posted haha, i kept listening to love songs while replying to this lmao 'We'll be together, come whatever!' (8)